Caused A Scene



I dedicate this blog to self-awareness, the first element that measures an individual's ability to absorb emotional intelligence...

And the very first topic to leave me stunned and confused...

Three drafts later and I still found this subject extremely difficult to communicate in an even flow of effortless reflection. All the pieces of the puzzle were visible, but did they fit together? No...Even after weeks of putting pen to paper, there was still nothing more to show for it other than a bunch of disheveled thoughts. None of it made sense.

Why?

Taking a step back brought me to the realization that there is a way I can work through this documentation. I promised myself that I would never do this on my blog because it's way too personal, but I feel I don't have a choice, so here we go:

IT'S PLAY TIME

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MY JOURNEY INTO SELF-AWARENESS

CHARACTERS:

Butterfly - The dreamer, births unlimited ideation, optimism, light, and energy for Writer.

Warrior - The fighter, births aggression, tenacity, analyzes, and critiques Writer.

Writer - Me, paralyzed with a pen barely touching my notebook.

Note* - For those of you who've never read a play before, everytime you see (BEAT) that means there's an awkward silence between the characters.

SCENE:

It's the middle of the night and Writer is pacing back and forth in the dark living room. She grabs a lighter and lights the three candles on the table, where her notebook lies. She digs in her satchel, below her stool to find a black pen. She sits on the stool and stares at the notebook. Observing the words written on the page, she tries to connect the pen to the paper.

Writer

It's not getting any...

She stands up and paces back and forth, then she stops. She has an idea, but the moment her eyes meet the notebook as she sits back down, she is reluctant to write.

It's here, it's here! Why isn't...?

She puts the pen down, takes a deep breath and rests her head on the notebook. She closes her eyes.

I don't know...I just don't know anymore...

Butterfly enters

Butterfly

Are you okay?

Writer

Not you! The last thing I need is you right now.

Butterfly

Why?

Writer

I don't need another one of your crazy ideas in my head!

Butterfly

Okay...Well, what are you working on?

Writer

Trying to piece together a self-awareness blog.

Butterfly

Yay! Risky topic, that is awesome!

Writer

...And scary.

Butterfly

Sometimes our best work comes from the things that scare us the most.

Writer

True...but do the same rules apply if there is unresolved conflict that you're afraid has no end?

Butterfly

Visualize an ending! I can help, let me dream! Let's dream big!

Writer

No! I'd prefer to work with what I already have. I do not want to reach for the stars right now. Please, let me try to manage what is on my plate.

Butterfly exits as Warrior enters. Writer becomes even more irritated.

Writer

I know what you are going to say, now leave me alone.

Warrior

Sure! Because that worked out soooo well for you the last time you ignored me.

Writer

Shut up!

(BEAT)

Warrior

Well, you're doing it, you've kept your head in the game, your eye on the prize and now, look what's happening.

Writer

But I'm exhausted.

Warrior

Come on...come on! Get up! Get productive, don't stop now!!

Writer

I'm not! I just don't want to continue on like this! Every obstacle is turning into a foe I have to brutally fight. Can't I just take a moment to breathe and dream of what I want outcome to actually be before starting another fight?

Butterfly re-enters and stand opposite of Warrior.

Warrior

Okay then...So what's on the agenda for tonight?

Writer

I don't know...

Warrior

Hey Butterfly, can you give us another minute? I have to touch base, with her, on a subject that your not familiar with, it's called reality.

Writer

Seriously?

Butterfly

Let's not forget I was the one that dreamt you up in the first place!

Writer

Okay, okay, chill...

Butterfly

She summoned me! That's why you are here, remember? She didn't want to be a Disney Princess, she wanted to be the Mortal Kombat princess! A princess with power. A princess who could levitate her foes, taking control over them every time they crossed her.

Writer

Loved that move! I love her metal fans!

Butterfly

And that kiss of death -

Writer

- How she removed her mask and revealed her beauty -

Butterfly

- Leaning in to plant that kiss -

Writer

- Watching her enemies explode into thousands of fleshy pieces.

Writer laughs

It's pretty awesome.

Warrior

Talk about killing your enemies with kindness.

(BEAT)

What are you writing about?

Writer

Self-awareness, I know what I want to say, I just don't know how to say it.

Warrior

Why not?

Writer

After my research, I feel...different.

Warrior

Like you are now aware of certain things?

(BEAT)

Writer

...Yeah.

Butterfly

Why the hesitation?

Warrior

Shhh! She needs to put her thoughts in order!

Writer

I don't know if I can...

Warrior

I think you do, you're just avoiding it.

Writer

Stop!

Butterfly

You haven't summoned me for awhile and you can't write down your thoughts, so I think you already have...

Warrior

It's not healthy! Make a list of things that need to be done!

Writer

I have three!

Warrior

Then why the hesitation?

Butterfly

I just asked her that and you silenced me!

Warrior

When you actually have things to show for all of your hard work, that's when you need to step up and follow through with what you say you're going to do!!

Writer

I'm...so...tired...

Butterfly

She needs to sleep! Can't you see she is so bogged down from all of the battles she fought last year?!

Warrior

This is an awkward time, she needs to push through it!

Butterfly

She needs a moment to reflect and dream, that is only way you can grow and learn from your journey!

Warrior

NO. MORE. DREAMING. Things are actually in the works for her! She cannot mess this up!

Butterfly

Where is the logic in that? When you start to see things differently, you lose all of the answers you've thought you had in the first place! Everyone needs a moment to adjust when the feeling of a new awakening is present!

Warrior

Not when you are on the brink of throwing away opportunities you've worked so hard to gain!

Butterfly

She needs rest!!!

Warrior

Who's fault is that?!!

(BEAT)

Butterfly

Excuse me?

Warrior

Who's fault is that?

Butterfly

I have done nothing but build opportunities for her!

Warrior

Only to dump the responsibilities to make them happen, all on me!

Writer

Oh, here we go...

Butterfly

Who's the one that encourages her?! If weren't for me, she would not have had the courage to speak to Jenna and the nomination for submitting to the Cherry Lane Theatre Mentorship Program, would have never happened!

Warrior

Oh, perfect timing! Way to think it through, you were completely oblivious to the filming schedule taking place. How many hours of sleep did she get during production? Six! How many hours did she have before the deadline? Fifty! Oh AND the deadline just happened to fall on the only break she was going have with her family! I had to fight like hell to work on the play and make sure there was dialogue in every scene of every outline!!

Butterfly

Oh boohoo! This was a long-time goal of hers and this was her opportunity! I appreciate your efforts, but seriously, you need to chill out.

Warrior

How can I chill when you keep feeding her these dreams? When she dreams, it takes effort and energy to turn them into goals - I fight to make sure every little detail is of decent quality, fight to make sure the ideas are solidified and fight to make them into reality.

Writer

Stop it, both of you.

(BEAT)

Butterfly

There is a newness in the air, it needs to be acknowledged.

Warrior

You give me one more dream and I swear I will scream my head off! Yes, things are happening and they need to be managed!

Butterfly

If the dreams stop, she'll feel trapped!

Warrior

Do you not listen to the hesitation in her voice? Can't you see this is a struggle to keep all of her goals aligned?!

Writer picks up the notebook and slams it on the table.

Writer

Enough. Enough. ENOUGH!!!!

Butterfly and Warrior quietly take a step back

Butterfly, you are beautiful..you are beautiful in the sense that you set me free. My husband was right to say that I am not happy unless I am spreading my wings. You bring energy, sunshine, and possibility. But when I see things through your eyes only, I fail to see things from a critical standpoint...and sometimes when I'm flying, I feel like I can't stop. I can't see the landings, the discoveries, the learning. Before I know it, it's all gone with the wind and doesn't turn into anything other than flighty inspiration!



Warrior, I admire you, I'm enamored of you! You take your stand to fight for what is right. You bring work ethic, tenacity, analytical

thinking. But I only have so much fight in me. I can't live a life fighting my surroundings to the point where I approach everything with skepticism...and to constantly be armed to prepare for the worst is exhausting!

(BEAT)

I feel I constantly need to manage the two of you and I can't take it anymore!! I can't keep doing this! I can't keep worrying about which one of you will step out of line! I can't keep anticipating on whether or not I need to either spread my wings and dream or arm myself with the kiss of death! I can't keep controlling this! I can't keep worrying like this! I can't keep judging this!


Writer takes a deep breath

I can't keep judging me.

Butterfly and Warrior take another step back and turn their backs on Writer.

True, some goals haven't been met and for that I have failed. But other things are happening. They didn't go according to plan, but they are happening...and I'm scared.

(BEAT)

I am scared because for the first time, in my life, I feel that it is all going to be okay.

Butterfly and Warrior turn to face each other.

That is why there is so much internal conflict, now. So what do I do? ...I don't know...but I do know that I need you. I need you both and I need you both to work together. I don't want you to work independently, anymore, can you do you that?

Butterfly

The only thing that stopped me was not having your permission.

Writer

What?

Warrior

Yes, you are our Commander in Chief, we've had this capability all along.

Writer

Yeah?

Butterfly

Yeah, it was all up to you to take the lead, you just needed to find your way.

Warrior

And own it.

(BEAT)

Writer

The Yin Yang...I've completely forgotten...

Warrior

When you would play Mortal Kombat before gymnastics?

Writer

Yeah, their symbol? Remember? the circle with the oppositions of black and white, evenly divided?

Butterfly

The Chinese symbol that everything must be balanced-

Warrior

Only then, can there be harmony.

(BEAT)

Writer

Gymnastics! I remember! You two worked together!!!

Butterfly

You dreamt of flying into the air with every dismount.

Warrior

And fought tirelessly to get there.

Writer

And it happened...

Butterfly

You were flying so high...

Writer

I felt invincible...

Warrior

Then you got careless, didn't watch your form and took a very hard spill that one time.

Writer

I thought I had broken my neck, it was pretty scary...it was hard to get the courage to get up, again, after that fall.

Warrior

But you watched your form, paid closer attention, and eventually-

Writer

I flew higher than ever and it never felt better.

Writer turns to Butterfly

Like you said, sometimes our best work comes from the things that scare us the most.

(BEAT)

Writer observes the notebook and stands up. Warrior and Butterfly turn to face her as she stands.

Yin Yang...The good cannot exist without the bad. The ray of light cannot be seen unless you've seen the darkness.

(BEAT)

I think I need to sleep. Tomorrow, I can prioritize my thoughts and come up with a plan. But first, I will take a walk. I will take the moment to process my new journey into self-awareness... and maybe have a little time to discover bigger visions. A new beginning...to breathe in this ongoing feeling...to allow and to cherish the most sensitive part of life...

Writer, Butterfly, Warrior

The balance.


(Black out)

END OF PLAY

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